Monday, 30 October 2017

Dear Diary 📖

According to today's society, I am weird. Yes, I guess it's true, but I love myself. I've recently been out with a couple of colleagues and realised how different I actually am compared to most people of my age.

I love Disney with all my heart. I always will. It's what makes me happy and what helps me everyday. I owe Walt so much and I will always be thankful for all the joy and happiness his company gave to me. I can't imagine how my life would be without Disney and I won't do it because it's part of me. Seeing my favourite characters warms my heart and makes me smile. Rapunzel, Mary Poppins, the princesses in general - thinking about them makes me grin like a Cheshire cat! My eyes get wet when thinking about Disneyland and the characters I've met there. I love them so much, I can't even express it in words.

I'm a hopeless romantic. Disney might have given me an unrealistic expectation of love but damn it, what's wrong in believing in true love and destiny? I don't want to do online dating or stuff like that because I strongly believe that love will find me one day. It might not be tomorrow, next month or next year but who cares? I'm only 21 years young and I have a long life in front of me! Who knows what will happen in the future? Nobody. No one can order me to stop dreaming. I know that many people who surround me are in relationships, planning their future but just because that's the case for them, doesn't mean that it has to be for me. I know what's good for me. Just because I didn't find my true love yet, doesn't mean that I will never find it. I'm aware that it will be complicated to find a girl who's just as obsessed with Disney as I am but I won't settle for less. I know that the right girl is waiting for me somewhere and someday, we'll find each other.

I don't like going out on the weekend, especially not at night. Compared to many people of my age, I don't drink and I don't go to clubs. I don't like being outside at night. It makes me feel uncomfortable, maybe because I watched too many crime series in my life and my scaredy-cat attitude but I don't see a problem with this. Some people like going out at night, some don't. That's just how it is. I enjoy watching shows and movies, surfing the Internet, laying down on the couch and taking naps, playing games and going to gym. Just because people have a different perception of how the perfect weekend looks like, doesn't mean that one of them is better than the other.

I'm a mum friend and I'm not going to change that. Every time someone starts growing on me, I start caring for them in a motherly way. I know that these people are old enough to care for themselves and I'm sorry for those who think that my attitude is annoying but I've thought about that and guess what? I have no reason to change. It shows that people mean something to me. I have emotions and I won't turn them off to please someone. People have to accept me the way I am or not. It's my own problem when I take things to heart too easily but I'm the one who has to deal with that.

I have so many weird odds. I wear pastel pink everyday because it makes me happy. I like being the girly little gay girl. I have weird eating habits and don't like vegetables or fast food. I spend all my money on merchandise. I detest children and will never ever have some. I still kiss my parents goodnight. I start crying so easily. I feel overtaxed when it comes to Social Media.
My goal in life is to see all Disney parks in the world and to live in a cute pastel apartment filled with Disney merchandise with a cute girlfriend and a Golden Retriever named Pongo and to own the first Rapunzel limited edition doll the Disney Store released.

The thing is - I know that I'm not the average 21-years-old-girl but that's totally okay. I've met wonderful people in my life and they told me many times that I should never change because they love me the way I am. I am so grateful that I found these people and that they always continue to support me. I really, really love you guys. ♥

So, what I want to say with all of this, just because society thinks you're strange, it doesn't mean that you have to change. People are different. We don't need to figure it out, we just need to respect it. People need to understand this. Never feel bad for what you are because you are awesome.

Quote of the day: "I guess I'll have to face that in this awful place, I shouldn't show a trace of doubt.
But pulled against the grain I feel a little pain, that I would rather do without. I'd rather be free from here.
" - Rebecca Sugar

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